Here I am, ready to complain...went to the dentist's office today...

and had a tooth pulled.  Credit scores always amaze me!  I lent all my savings to one of my family members and immediately, I broke three teeth...and, even though I'm on disability, I was able to borrow a goodly amount to put on my dental work.  A crown/cap, pulled tooth, new partial with a new tooth.  Yikers! 

**These boys are my oldest son and my third son. Doing one of the things they like to do best... computers and gaming.  We had a visit from Big B's family recently and we went to #1 Son's home.  Don't I LOVE to watch my grandkids faces as they interact and play.
**I am getting ready for a Nov 7th Craft Fair here in my community.  We have advertised outside so, hopefully, I will sell enuf to put a bit in my savings.  Every little bit helps, right?
**I have been suffering the slings and arrows of people who don't know me but feel they have the right to guess who I am.  I guess I am suffering them joyfully or some such because it doesn't bother my head (only my heart whom I am reasoning with).  It is wonderful to become more mature and learn to let people's "stuff" go and just let them be.   I am feeling down and working on that every day. 
**I have been having dreams of the past and they are most uncomfortable.  I wake up in a fog even though I know they are only dreams. 
I have not been blogging because the fibromyalgia/PTSD/Lyme disease has made me very tired and I have had to choose my chores and things I want to get done.  And today I choose to write and unload my mind a bit.  I cooked Luby a La-amb for myself and I LOVE it.  It is made from lamb cut up into small chunks, green beans (a lot!), 2 large onions, and a large can of Italian peeled tomatoes.  You brown the lamb chunks and onions in olive oil and then add the green beans (if you used canned, drain well) and tomatoes and cook for 4 or 5 hours over low heat.  It is best served over brown rice...but my fave is putting it into pita bread pockets.  YUMMMMMM.  I will be making my grandmother's fudge recipe next week for the craft fair.  The hardest part of making the fudge is not eating all of it!!  I have to make signs for my tables...yes I have TWO tables because I have a good bit of crafts PLUS recycling and stuff I will sell.

**I am blessed and thankful for the roof over my head and I never forget that.  I am thankful for two sons who love me.  Someday maybe the other two sons will forgive me whatever slings and arrows I have sent their way and stop wasting their lives blaming me and others for their lives and become friends with me again.  I am thankful for my ability to crochet and knit and greeting card recycling.  I am thankful for friends who read my blog and who support me in my moods and tiredness.  I am thankful for Russ S who has kept me "in computers" and now I have a laptop.  Yay!!  Thank you God for making wonderful people... okay, and thank you for the not so very wonderful people.  Big Smile.  I am VERY thankful for the God/dess who made us all.  I wish everyone could have as clear and straight a relationship with their Higher Power.   I have gotten much from the support and surprises I have gotten from God.  I am thankful for my ability to walk to the mall behind our buildings.  It is nice exercise and nice places to look at stuff....and we have a Dollar store.  Nice addition!!  I am thankful, just so thankful to be together in my brain and head and to be able to see my grandkids...the Frosting on the Cake of Life!!  Smile.
I have so much more I should write for myself but am getting tired.  I think I'll blame the dentist for taking the rest of the day off...tic.