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Sunday, April 03, 2011

Timothy Brian Patrick Arbuckle, April 18, 1969 to March 28, 2011

This is Timothy and his beloved Julie.My son, Timothy, passed away this past week.  He has gone from this earthly plane and is flying in the Universe toward his Dao Garden.  He is a hero and will be again.  He had a most gorgeous face and was extremely kind to all those he saw as needing kindness and very protective.  He was a companion to Julie and worked very hard and the people at his work loved him so very much.  Timothy has 2 children that this is hard on...Tegan 13 and Devin 15.  Timothy was surrounded by love the whole time he was in the hospital -- from Thursday to Monday.   He is missed so very much.  He is so special.  I am asking God for a very strong sign that Timothy is at Peace.  I guess all parents ask for that.  I learned one very painful and difficult thing here--be sure to tell your children the truth.  Nothing else hurts you so much as having not told them the truth.  It catches up to them and you and then there is so much to weed through.  I admit to being greatly in love with my sons as they stood...but I had dissociation that came along with my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and so told things as I "saw them," and learned later it wasn't the truth.  That is killing my heart.  I seem to be speaking in gibberish.   Well, anyway, I shall miss my son every day of my natural life and then when I am in Heaven I shall see him again.  I have great Faith.  I now understand a little tiny bit of what Father and Mother God went through when Jesus Christ was crucified...just a tiny bit.  I didn't have any precognition that this was going to happen to Timothy and Father God did know.  Oh my God.  It takes my breath away.  I love my sons.  I wasn't perfect but there were good times.  Please pray for my sons that they will remember the good times.  Thank you so much.  I have written more patterns but have to get the wherewithal (anybody got an extra one somewhere?) to put them up.